When I look back over my life, I am pleased. Pleased with all of the decisions that I have made and pleased with my lot in life.
There are dozens of decisions that I have to make every single day. Decisions about business dealings, my personage, my children, my family, my relationships and people are in corners screaming. Pop Culture is screaming. Politicians are screaming. Mass Media is screaming. The CDC is screaming. I was screaming.
There was a time in my life that I would have bent my ear to the varying screams but I have outgrown that temptation and I have stopped screaming.
48 years of life, has taught this girl a few things. My missteps, bad decisions, misguided passions and stubbornness have taught me a hell of a lot and my need to be “right” has been surrendered.
I am in the most beautiful place I have ever been.
In the midst of a global pandemic.
I trust me.
I trust my gut. I trust my God. I trust my convictions and as much as I know, I don’t know.
What I know I know. What I need to know will be revealed. I do not need to know everything and there is peace in peace.
The only thing I need to do and will do is live my life with grace and grit. Determination, steadfastness, conviction, compassion and accountability.
And when I need to know what I need to know, I will trust my Gut and my God and the way will be made clear.